jams was good today and P.victor said a few things that really hit me.

1. desire to seek God................. daily.
2. transformation begins with me.
3. making a positive impact.

somewhere he said "waking up earlier to do tawg" and it struck me. my post yesterday was on tawg.. and today everything he said just suddenly brought me back to my tawg.. and my obedience to God. i really need to bring myself to recommit all that i have to God, and to even long for an intimate time with him. to do tawg daily and not let distractions get the better of me. tv can wait, tumblr can wait, youtube can wait. God first.

transformation begins with me because if i want to see how God is using me or changing me, i have to let him. and i have to renew my mind. love. i cannot just ask God to teach me how to love and expect myself to be the friendliest or the most kind-hearted and self-sacrificial person alive. i need to make it a point to be nice to people. it's on my own part. God will help, but i have to take the little steps.

and of course i've to always remind myself that my actions will always affect someone... somehow. and i need to remember to think before i act. or even think before i say. i know i am too straightforward for my own good. i want people to see Christ through me.

but yes jams in all was really good and i'm starting to feel a little more comfortable around the Wmin people YAY. and that mel's always here for me so i'm very thankful for that (BIG SMILEY).

that's all. abrupt ending. ciaoz!

morning: claire and david came over to my place to make rice krispies treats and it was such a success!! received so many positive feedback about it hehe + it's extremely easy and quick to make so yay i might just consider making that for christmas or birthdays.. somewhere along that line. i found out why i failed the very first time - i added 3 TEAspoons of butter instead of 3 TABLEspoons. ridiculous mistake.

afternoon: cell was crazy fun because we played sardines and 3 blind mice. fell and hurt my left butt cheek but it's fine now. the sun today is just merciless. service was impactful and i could really feel God moving in the chapel. and he gave me an important thought and i really ought to reflect on that.

"just because you've done worse before, it doesn't give you a privilege to do bad now." the thought that was ringing repeatedly in my mind. i know what was God referring to. i know exactly what God was implying. thank You for speaking to me during service. needed that reminder.

evening: dinz with cell. played BANG! and polar bear. good dinner, good company, good laughs.

plans for tomorrow: jams @ PL, meet bee @ flea --> dinner with her + other lovelies. YAY.

picture from Chengdu. i miss how everything is so dirt cheap there. and the cooling weather.. not the harsh cold!! heat is okay, humidity is not. 

randomly found a new background to change into. i really fancy the texture. and i was extremely bored of the previous one.

so anyway, attachment was good today because time flew so fast!! work was barely work and i had fun. headed down to town to meet may and kai. had great laughs over dinner @ hongkong cafe. mini interrogation section and we found out the various queer things people do in front of different groups of people. which is very interesting hahaha.

can't believe kai is enlisting soon!! and derick. and jek hui. NS is stealing away all my friends hahahaha. oh yes and i'm starting to get used to guys being botak. as in... i used to ALWAYS say that i can never imagine so and so without hair and all.. but i'm over it. i've seen so many guys going in and coming out looking actually quite not bad with a botak head hahahaha. + tanner skin.

so yes i had a fantastic day and i reached home at 0030, which is crazy because usually i'll be insanely guilty about it. i'm not sure why i wasn't today. too caught up in fun.

a few of my cell peeps are coming over tomorrow morning to make rice krispies treats with me, YIPPEEE. it's going to be epic fun. i hope we don't create too much a mess hahaha. and tomorrow, i WILL wake up earlier to tidy my room up a little. i can't bring myself to show my churchies how messy a girl i actually am lol.

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE xx

oh p/s i bought a new pair of sandals and slippers hehe

just got back from attachment not too long ago and for the very first time, i worked overtime!! which is funny because i'm not supposed to be this joyful when i'm already providing free labour, but it was quite an experience. and i did it most willingly. today was an odd day because most people came in the late afternoon so the usually busy morning was significantly more manageable.

things i did today:
1. repacking
2. picking
3. counter 1
4. preparing & labeling

i'm glad that i am learning so much from attachment, and that my colleagues are the friendliest bunch of people you'll be more than happy to be around with. can't wait to do dispensing!! i hope i manage though. my heart beats a million times faster whenever someone speaks to me medical terms in chinese. PANIC MODE ON. make that a billion times when it's dialect.

 technically, only 5 more days of attachment left. yay or nay? hahahaha. CIAOZ.

jayesslee + cathy nguyen + worship song = absolutely amazing!!

loving the fact that i have every mondays off because it means i naturally have a longer weekend than everyone else hehe. today was just me lazing around my home.. eating sushi for lunch with my dear sister and i had a pathetic attempt of trying to make rice krispies treats. joechua gave all of us a pack (and i requested for another lol) last saturday and it's SO delicious. everybody around me had it before during their childhood or something but i honestly haven't tasted this beautiful snack before!! heaven on earth. and it's actually no longer available in stores so yes the reason why i actually bothered to make it.... or at least try to.

i heated the marshmallows and everything was going SO well. until i tried mixing the rice krispies cereal in. the melted marshmallow was hardening up really quickly and it very soon became lumpy and extremely difficult to mix. so disappointing. it was way tougher than i though!! let's just hope joechua successfully makes it so that he can bring some during the weekend!! yayyyyyy.

so much for being on a diet sera, lol. munch munch.

ps i have instagram now!! YIPEE
pps my aunt said my face is rounder now!! BOOHOO

 
there's a lot i want to do despite not having time. work because my bank account's full of flies, learn a third language like spanish or something cool, travel travel travel (my holiday wasn't long enough lol), improve my voice by... idk practising and that takes time too!!... many many things.

but anyhoo, attachment has just started today and it was really fun!! with great people to work around with so thank God. quite a pity i'm only there for a short 3 weeks but i believe i'm going to learn tons of things!! did repacking and picking medicine today which was... well felly and i were such lost sheep. but we got better, and i believe we're only going to get faster and more efficient!!

starting work at 9am. procrastination is the thief of time. my report is 1% done, and i'm not exaggerating. i've written only one sentence, and that line wasn't even hard to come up with. i'm scared i wouldn't be able to complete it on time, but then again... i'm still busy being distracted by everything else. like food.

i think my appetite has increased a million times after i'm back from china!! ugh gross. i'm getting so fat now i'm disgusted with myself. i eat with no control. time to diet!! but it never works.............. and everytime i say that i usually end up eating more.

had jams @ PL earlier today and i promise i'm such an awkward turtle. i was 10min late so me being as uncool as i am, i dare not entered t1/t2 lol. + i got lost because i'm such an adam kid hahaha but thanks to gabe for giving me directions!! and i called may and told her about the situation i was in and i ended up talking to her in the toilet for like a good 30min. then mel finally replied me so YAY mel to the rescue!!

then i stepped on stage to practise for the very first time and i had to solo one verse and i was beyond terrible omgee. firstly i barely know the tune and secondly i was frightened. i don't know what i was doing lol.

but yea it was still quite an experience and i can't wait to grow more in Wmin. and there's so much to learn about voice control and all the technicals i can't wait. there's a lot more to worship than just singing.

ahhh this is like a random post to remind myself to practise and practise and practise. projection + less vibration. i don't really know how to control my voice but i'll try, hahahaha. omg it's fun though.

ok bye guys!!

p/s my sistah is flying off soon, and i've not even been back for a week yet:( but she's going to learn so much from her mission trip, yay!! proud of her<3