BREAK IS ENDING SOON! have you guys enjoyed enough yet?

this holiday has got to be the most fufilling one yet. caught up with so many of my friends and it's just heartwarming to know how even though we ain't in the same class/school anymore, we're still as close... if not closer :')

anyway i think 2011 has been quite a year for me. i don't think i've ever faced with so many obstacles in a single year before but yes, this year i have. but i guess it's a great thing because i've seen so evidently how God is good to me, and how He sees me through every trial i've faced.

Trial - no one really uses this word anymore. people just use "problems" or like "setbacks".. you don't really hear someone coming up to you and say "i'm facing a trial." now but trial has a positive tinge to it. because it means being rewarded after being tested. and setbacks, problems, etc. just means going through a difficult time, and it sounds totally purposeless. like for no reason at all, you're having a tough phase in your life. it doesn't exactly make any sense in a way. but yes. TRIAL. God won't place trials in your life if He thinks you can't handle it.

really learnt about relying on God this year and i'm so thankful for that. there's so many things that i can never do with my own abilities. God has never forsaken me.

2012 will be a challenging year, but i'm ready 8)

p/s i had my very first worship min outing yesterday hehe

1. buffet town for lunch with my famzzzzz
2. i'm stoked to meet G and mela for dinz later
3. i've no idea how to use gmail, someone help please!!
4. my left calf muscle ache from all the tiptoeing
5. i'm a little sunburnt

okBYE!

i love my churchies <3

i must admit that it is getting very exhausting to be out every single day. it might sound like a whole lot of fun to be able to hang out with your favourite buddies but it is tiring too. i need to take a day off from this busyness... but i ain't gonna cancel plans!!

jan 3 onwards - school's going to take a toll on me. hahaha what negativity i have.

pretty zonked out but i can't sleep because i'm waiting for my brownies to be ready...................................... baking at such an hour, what was i thinking??

i was reading my archives on my previous blog when i saw this song. it reminded me of how sacrificial Christ is, and just how ample His love and grace is. God has been so real in my life recently, and i'm just witnessing His works every day in awe.

He loved me, the undeserving.

this season, i'm really learning about depending on God, and believing that His plans are far greater than mine. 'cause as much as i always want to rely on God, i end up counting on my own abilities, which is a far cry from what God can do.

i'm excited for my first jam session, but i've no idea when hahahaha.

G, does this picture disturb you??

anyway, i painted my nails in the spirit of Christmas!

so, today was my first rest day at home ever since break started, although not intended. i was supposed to go for christmas service but i injured (it's just a bruise actually) my left heel last thursday. have been walking (or limping...) around with a tiptoed left foot so much that the balls of my foot feels extremely sore.

though injured, i appreciate this rest day. i have no other breaks for the rest of my holiday but it's FUN ALL THE WAY.

but ANYHOO! FELIZ NAVIDAD GUYS!!! (please let's not forget that Christ is the reason for this merry season!!)

ps 5 minutes before i typed this post, i stood up from my chair completely forgetting that my heel is bruised. the pain inflicted was IMMENSE. and i could feel my heartbeat throbbing there. INSANE!! but i'm fine now hahahahaha

pps that was like a wow long ps.

things i've thankful for this week:

kai's belated birthday gift + card
gone to the greatest exhibition ever - titanic
finished running most of my errands
received a phone call bringing insanely Great news with a capital G
jam session with kel
a new added family member - Stout

have been blessed with such a fulfilling week. going for cantata later:)

met up with my lovely 4e2 yesterday and i had such a blast!! we were chilling at marina barrage and THANK GOD the train service was not disrupted when we were going there. had a mini picnic and kel brought his ukelele so we were just jamming along. ANDDDDD i learnt how to play the basic C G Am F on it. ACHIEVEMENT! and those chords are so versatile it just fits almost every song.

going to get my guitar strings today and change the strings on the guitar that bee gave me. i miss bee, she's such a sweet friend. and i probably won't meet her till next year :'(

okay back to barrage, it was raining insanely heavily when we were about to leave and jekhui and i had to use kai's picnic mat to get to the bus stop. IT WAS THE CRAZIEST IDEA but i was in total hoopla about it. could not stop laughing all the way, OH SUCH MERRIMENT~ and talk about the embarrassment and stares we were getting...

then we headed to mind's for some games. played Cranium and Saboteur and i don't know what's that hilarious but i could not stop giggling throughout the games. suspect it's sugar rush from the blueberry drink.

love my 4e2 homies.

thank you sweetheart for lending me your spare phone:)

exams were over just yesterday but it felt like i've been playing and having the time of my life for a week already. so exhausted from all these fun but i really think i deserve this stress-free break. needed it.

okay, i'm zonked from a good saturday. good night people!! xx

FREEDOM SMELLS SOOOOOOO GOOD.

this song reminds me of so many of my mates. thank you, every single one of you, for supporting me through all of my obstacles. would have given up long ago if you guys didn't encourage me, and by different means, help me. all of you are so special to me.

you're the only reason why i'm not afraid to fly.

OH MY GOODNESS.

I DON’T KNOW IF IT’S TRUE OR NOT BUT RUMOURS HAVE IT THAT ONE DIRECTION IS COMING TO SINGAPORE IN APRIL I’M ABOUT TO CRY NOW IF IT’S TRUE.. THEN ASDFGHJKL I DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO REACT ANYMORE. BUT EARLY APRIL I’LL BE SLOGGING MY LIFE OUT IN CHINA CLEARING 2 MODULES SO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I BEG OF THEM TO COME AT THE END OF APRIL. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I NEED TO HUG THEM NOW. I CANNOT CONTAIN THIS EXCITEMENT ANYMORE. ARE. THEY. REALLY. COMING???????

OHHHHHHHHH SUCH GORGEOUS BOYS WITH SUCH CHARMING VOICES.

NO ONE CAN RESIST.

okay back to studying for immuno. #2moredaystotemporaryfreedom

Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD himself, is the Rock eternal.

Isaiah 26:4

not for me, not for men, but for You.

WAR

start time: 12 December 2011, 09:00

end time: 16 December 2011, 10:00

I. AM. READY.

JOE BROOKS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!

but... on 15th december, i'll be having my papers so i can't go for his concert. really, what a bummer!! extremely tempted to forsake my results and just go watch him live but that ain't the right thing to do, especially when my grades are not exactly adequate. i can only hope that he's still in singapore after my last paper.. then i'll do some stalking hehehe.

i want to hug him SO BADLY, you don't understand.

asdfghjklasdfghjkl he's so cute when he speaks in chinese!!

hi guys!! i skipped school today, with mc of course. my medicine works wonders in knocking someone out. it instantly makes you sleepy. like right now. i just took my med about 10min ago (okay fine so maybe not exactly immediately) and my head feels like it's spinning already. dad didn't even wake me up this morning to go for school which means i had 10 hours of uninterrupted sleep. and that never happened before. i am someone who wakes up once i get my full 7 hours. MY MEDICINE IS MAGIC.

i'm going to go back to sleep now. and then try to study when i'm up again. being sick isn't fun. being sick a week before exams is plain worrying. but i'm enjoying this day off from school. i haven't felt so stress-free in a long long time.

p/s i think G is secretly in love with one direction.

/edit i want to express my heartfelt thanks for jianying here. thanks for being so sweet to brew 2 bottles of chrysanthemum tea for me when you found out i was unwell. you didn't have to, and i did nothing to deserve this act of kindness. thank you for being so nice to me hehe :)

i just found out that i'm really awkward with goodbyes. and it's not even like forever farewell kind of stuff. it's just a goodbye to end a day of hanging and chilling out? haha i don't know, i just suck at them.

apologies that i haven't blogged in.... forever. my week has been extremely eventful and i'm glad for everything that has happened :')

on thurs, cleo and mela celebrated my belated birthday for me, which was super sweet. i appreciate them so much, and i really love my secondary school mates. no one can compare to 4e2.. they're just different. they make you feel so comfortable, so accepted, and they love you back, even if you don't deserve it. i'm so... touched. + cleo baked tiramisu (which failed visually but it's beyond delicious in taste) and that was the sweetest thing anyone has done for me. i can imagine what my life will be if i've not been in e2.. it's going to be very sad hahaha.

on fri, i met up with jianying and may to just chill around town and we had din tai fung for dinner!! seriously i love xiao long baos so much. like SO MUCH. and the vinegar vegetables thingy, the bomb i tell you. and we had such a fun time just enjoying the company of each other. then brendy joined us after awhile and we just walked around pretty aimlessly.. but it was a great catch up<3

then on sat, i met up with most of my e2 lovelies, which was in-cre-di-ble. sometimes i think i'm too attached to my e2 friends that i'm not very receptive about having more people in my life. apart from my churchies (oh yes and i went for service!!) of course because they are just such sweethearts. i like hugging my friends.

but of course there are people here and there from all over singapore (or not) that i still hold very dear to me. i've been so blessed with so many amazing friends..

"Friends are God's way of showing His love." thank you Lord.

then just today, like a few hours ago, i went for standard chart marathon.. it was only 5k though but i'm so glad that i conquered it despite myself being ill. wanted to bring down my best race time by 5min but ended up taking a minute more this time round. oh well. but my "gang" was so cute yesterday when they tried persuading me to skip my run tomorrow because they were worried i might faint or something<3

motivation during the marathon: for every second i run (instead of walk), i am a moment faster. i don't know if that makes sense.. but it really kept me going. and i'm proud of my entire family because we all completed the race, and that is very accomplishing and heartwarming.

this is a long post with no pictures yes SIAN but never mind.. i'm drowned in gratefulness for anything and everything that God has granted me with :')

just remembered something..

during worship min aud, sister ann asked what am i learning during my tawg. and i told her about fully depending and trusting on God. because with Him nothing can go wrong.  and that i should stop fearing because it's really needless.

why am i not applying what i've learnt? God never fails. whatever may be is His will and i know His plans are far better, far greater than mine.

very enlightened. thank You. i love showers.

if worship isn't the way to go,

then what is?

bee reblogged this on tumblr and this is by far the saddest commercial i've ever seen in my life. never ever thought a video as short as 3 minutes can make me tear so much. all of you should watch it.

"Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4

school is really taking a toll on me. there must be more to school than just memorising aimlessly. really, i got to find the secret to loving school, loving studying. i can't wait for exams to be over..

TITANIC EXHIBITION + NARNIA EXHIBITION HERE I COME..

killing two birds with a stone - i always loved museums, and i'm gonna catch up with my best bunch of buds. beyond excited!

now back to report writing... and then memorising for immuno quiz tomorrow.

O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear. All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

i was horrible when i did Glorify today. i'm so disappointed with myself, gahhhhhhhhhhh.

i felt so defeated after microbio test.. it was horrendous. studied way too many bacteria but i completely blanked out during the paper and i only remembered 4. four out of gazillion is pathetic. i'm so disappointed with myself. i should have done better, i could have done better.

let's just hope i don't break down if anyone asks me how's my week. so far it ain't good :'(

photo credit: tumblr

but i'm listening to one direction. they make me happy. i actually like being a fangirl. cheap thrills. looking at handsome boys make me smile. i'm not psychotic. my sentences are short. they don't link. i don't know what i'm typing.. nor thinking.

but thank you God for Your mighty intervention. in great great awe of You.

hi guys i hope your week has been good!! mine's extremely hectic but i'm glad i managed to pull out time to even make it for service on both saturday and sunday. accompanied kel to adult service today and though the atmosphere was very different, it was empowering still. had a really great time with cell last night and i had black tea macchiato from koi to satisfy my sweet tooth!! it's DA BOMB.

oh and earlier on saturday, i went to woodlands with the intention to donate blood. BUT i got rejected again. totally not fated to do so mannnnn so disappointing. but they gave me a list of food that i should take to increase my iron level so till wed, i'm going on a hardcore iron-rich diet. i've never felt so desperate to do something before, ever. maybe it's the post-effects of being 18, hahahaha.

i've 2 tests and a presentation up next week, so i doubt i'll be updating this space much! unless i want to escape from my workload..... which is very likely.

ciaoz!! xx

this appreciation post should have been up a few days back but sorry i was busy. to everyone that made my 18th so special, thank you so very insanely much.

by any means, be it twitter, facebook, texts, calls, cards, i am sincerely grateful for them all. it's no doubt that i've been blessed by the sweetest bunch of friends. i can't thank all of you enough, but know that i love every single one of you and that i'll always be there whenever any of you needs me okay, promise. all of you are extremely special and dear to me.

i love you guys to bits and dusts and ions and electrons. i'll love you even if the space is vacuum. geeky yet cheesy hahaha.

hi guys. today's the first day of the third week of sem 2. i'm already so drained after only 2 weeks of school and i'm frankly very much dead. there's so many reports, so many projects, so many tutorials - okay, i'm simply overloaded with assignments. it's crazy, and soul sucking.

really need the strength to carry on. isaiah 40:31. just 6 more weeks!! i can do this, YES.

positive thought: my birthday is in a week (GRINS)

Photobooth fun.

i had the craziest time with my two lovely mandahs on friday. we had THE BEST bar chor mee at upper thomson, followed by ice kimo, which was overflowing with goodness. we talked about the happiest topics and i laughed so much that i was too full to finish my ice cream. absolutely love them<3

i love fridays. today is sunday. tomorrow is school day.

hi dear earthlings!

i got an amazing job opportunity last sunday thanks to dawn hun. working at the new punggol waterway thingy. IT IS BEAUTIFUL, i love it. new hang out spot, serious!

so, i was in charge of this inflatable pool thing where kids paddle water boats in it (PEDO MODE ON). it was crazy fun! and the people i work with were extremely funny!! proud to say i have toned arms now!! hahaha kidding, but my muscles ache from carrying the kids off and onto the boats. i love kids nevertheless! the sun was totally merciless that day so i'm more sunburnt now, again. i better not peel again. school has started and i'm not going to class with uneven skin shade! yes okay picture time!

because it was the opening of the new waterway, they had fireworks!! pardon my lousy phone quality but really, this is the best i could take.

and the view of it at night is just spectacular. i can totally imagine myself stargazing.. and just chilling out here with a few of my best buds, doing nothing much but talk about our lives. it's like an escape from our busy schedules.

okay bye guys! i'm 70 bucks richer by the way!! #justsaying