no idea what's going to be of my voice.

or my throat.

i just don't want to stop singing.

praying with faith, and trust.

AG Youth Rally w/ Jon Pritikin.

He was really a great speaker. And he touched so many lives today. Thank you Jon, thank You God. 

I should have tried harder. I had this list of friends to bring for this rally. But how many came along today? None. Firstly, i did not ask all of them. Secondly, i did not persist hard enough. It's not really about the status of them "converting" into a Christian, but it's really about them knowing the love of God, and how He can relieve every single one of them from the pain they are going through. How He accepts us despite our fears and failures. He thinks we're special.

If i had tried harder, how many lives could have been saved today?

How many lives could have been impacted today?

Urgency. 

What a lesson about bringing back the lost sheep.

I will never take another event lightly ever again.

so creative and inspirational.

please do watch it.

i promise you it's worth it.

ps i'm giving marcellie a miss.
what a sacrifice i bear not to make.
but a sacrifice i made after all.

here's to the kids who are going through a difficult time. when life seems bleak and hopeless, and you feel as though your entire world is crashing down. when you know you already have too much on your plate but you keep feeding it because you got to grit your teeth and be strong. don't ever give up. life gets tough, but present suffering will pass.

the Lord's mercy will last. 

hang in there, dear friend.

IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
cheers to not needing to go back to school for the upcoming 3 weeks (except for resume photoshoot on monday but that's nothing mentally tiring) because of attachmenttttttt~ seriously believe i'm a lot more cut out to work than to study. but a paper's a paper and that's all people look at.

3 weeks --> exams --> 7 weeks of holidays (woohoo!!) --> next semester --> GRAD-U-A-TION.

as quoted from dezzy, "lazing is therapeutic stuff."

9-5 lessons EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. this week.

beyond drained.

test + presentation tomorrow.

i foresee myself staying up all night refining my presentation, doing up my script and studying for my test. lighting up the midnight oil that i usually don't burn. i feel extremely worn out. but i'm not going to give up. final year, let's go. i've a GPA to pull up.

last day before attachment.

can't wait.

hopefully it'll be much better than school.

Class fun.

rehearsed for our presentation in class today.

got bored and had some camwhoring fun instead.

 bad quality pictures, but that doesn't mean i'm any less happy.

love my group mates aplenty <3

i survived class with minimal sleep today.

KUDOS!

 thankful for my brownice homies <3

celebrated denise's birthday and it was a successful surprise, YAY

ps my EC was there yesterdayyyy

*GASSSSSPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP*

photo credit: tumblr, because i haven't been taking pictures lately.

how i spent my past week:

1. school school 

2. studying for test

3. met up w/ my darling e2 (incl the pop boys yay!)

4. sleepover @ chlo's.... had a really intimate talk<3

5. school

6. worked (we had new yummy flavours - chocolate cookie!!! and the all time yucky overpowering smelly flavour that EVERYONE around me absolutely adores - D24 & mao shan wang... hahaha)

something about this past week that has been different. i've been a lot more joyful hahaha. i missed this side of me. maybe in the past months i've been too wallowed in my situations or dreading school too much to even carry the spirit of positivity. i got to catch up with a few of my homies and that felt extremely pleasant.

ps chlo visited me @ work today, yayyyyyyy!!

pps i ate so much ice cream i think my waist is about to burst.

till then, 

CIAOZ.

here's to the boy who never fails to make me smile.
picture credits: my sissy<3

kids. i love watching them grow up. just last week he learnt how to walk. i feel like a proud mommy even though he's just my nephew. the way he giggles, the way he claps, the way he makes funny noises, the way he hums to songs..... what a precious baby <3

happy first birthday, baby darius!

PROJECT MANAGEMENT REPORT: DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
finallyyyyyyy. it was a tiring journey but i'm glad at least the very first baby step is complete. so much brain cells were killed in the process but it's okay, it was worth it. i've amazing group mates to tide through this with me and i know we'll do ourselves and our supervisors proud, yayyyyy.

anyway, my sister is graduating today! which means i'm giving service a miss. but all i'm going to do is to sit outside NUS because i can't enter the auditorium lol. but i'm still going because it's a really important day for my sister and also because my dad told me to hahaha. i can't wait to graduate. can't believe my sissy is graduating before me despite entering university after me. great life is great.

to anyone out there:
don't ever put people down in trying to prove your point in an argument.

it hurts.

this is my brave attempt of sketching a little bit of my loot from the past few days. went shopping again today!!!!!!! got myself a bag from DP, a very simple fox hoodie, and vans flats. giving all my love and focus to that pretty pair of shoes. maybe it's because i haven't bought shoes in a long while, but yesssssssss, finally i got myself a pair of decent shoes. apart from my toms.. which i can't wear to attachment so what's the point hahaha.

spent so much recently.. #heartache

after my exams i'm going to work my butt off so that i can earn all my moolah back... and this time, not spend them so that i can travel!!! time for some serious saving....

okayBYE!

HOLA. i went shoppping with cheeloh today and it was fabuloussssssssss (cue high school musical song). got myself a top, a skirt, a new spectacle box, an extremely pretty necklace and my best buy - a really flowly oversized top with peacock prints!! absolutely ADORE it. i feel like i can fly. chlo can vouch that i was laughing to myself like an idiot because i love it that much. and.................. because i can. too bad i can't show you its beauty because i don't have some fancy camera to play around with hahaha.

stepped into A&F for the very first time. dark. that's all i can say. oh, and overpowering smell of perfume. but it's not that bad. nothing special though. but it's really like a maze inside. i reckon i get lost if i enter alone.

excited for the weekend!!
though i only have school on thursday this week. JOYYYYY.

till then,
ciaoz xx

prayers are powerful,
and they make a lot of difference.

in this case, it's not like prayer changes things,
but more like prayer changes me...
and my perception of everything else..

thank You for speaking to me God.

Unsettled.

In need of patience.
Pride, go away.

Tired of crying.

Sick of being a baby.

God i understand. But it's so difficult to accept the ways of how You work.
Still though, i place my trust in You.
Faithful Father peace forever, i will rest in You.
I know You'll either get me out of this darkness, or surf the storm with me.
You'll never forsake me.
Yes, God.
Yes, Lord.

Keeping the faith.