Pssh.

i'm too blur sometimes. i think this is the first time i'm actually admitting it but yes, sad though true. i had this amazing job that pays me 25 bucks for an hour and for the 2 days i've worked, that hour was always filled with so so sooooo much laughter it really isn't quite a job. butttttttttttt the sotong me didn't know i've to book slots to work and so i didn't! tadahhhhh now i'm jobless :(:(:(:'(:(:(:(:'(

but oh well. at least i had fun while it lasted :) and i thank God for this INCREDIBLE job opportunity. couldn't ask for a better.

happythought: sleepover at clarice's next tuesday!! (rolls around in excitementtttt.....)

moolah.

I JUST STARTED WORKING.

THE PAY IS SO DARN GOOD.

I get it.

if life on earth was good, then i'll never learn to appreciate heaven, and never yearn to even want to be in heaven.

guys, the chances of me having to retake my immunology is sky high so pray for me alright. i'm really trying to be fully dependent and fully reliant on God now. i know everything is in the will of God and that His plans are far greater than mine so i should not doubt even if things do not go my way.

1 Peter 5:7
"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

Wake.

grandpa's cremated.
exams are over.

juggling between my granddad's death (+ his wake) and studies was extremely tiring and difficult. i'm glad i pulled through alive, even though i know i haven't done well for papers i should never have messed up. but what's done is done and the big guy up there has everything in His hands.

can do nothing else but to trust.

RIP

in loving memories of this endearing man,

my granddad was a great man. fortunately or unfortunately, his time was up. but he lived a long and fufilling life. by the age of 87, he had a stable business, he lived long enough to see his great grandchildren, he had been loved by all his 11 kids and all his darling grandchildren, and lots more. he left when there weren't much people around (in the hospital), he probably didn't want us to see him go. it was such a shock, i expected him to hold on longer, till my exams are over or something. but he did not.

it pains my heart to know that he's no longer around, and as my sister said, "grandpa is just another word now. no longer a form of greeting." how very true. but at least, he no longer has to suffer now. he's off to a better place and i should be comforted by that.

goodbye grandpa, i love you.

Rely.

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."

i learnt to be totally dependent on God recently. and i know it's only because my abilities have reached an end and there's no longer a point to trust my own strength when it can only bring me this near, when God's strength can bring me miles further instead.

thank God for the satisfiable results.

studied with kel today and we're going to mug together again tomorrow. quite glad that we're actually spending some good time together (even if it means to just face the boring books) before he leaves for melbourne. 6 whole weeks. wished my course has such great opportunities to have attachments overseas just like his hahaha.

depressing thought: never gonna happen though lol.

A hole burnt in my pocket.

it's crazy how much i spent these few days. let's calculate my expenditure shall we?

today:
lunch + dinner = $20
nail polish = $10
ezlink = $10
total.................................................................. $40

yesterday:
lunch + dinner = $20
acz loots = $50
ezlink = $10 (yes i topped up a day after another. that's adult fare for you.)
magazines = $7
random snacks = $3
total.................................................................. $90

so that's $130 in just 2 days. so disappointed in myself with the lack of discipline to control my spendings. i know how irresistible all these pretty goods and delish food are Sera, but still... 130 bucks in two days is way out of line. still sort of in shock. maybe i should never have calculated it out hahaha.

sometimes i wish i'm loaded hahaha. no wait, actually, all the time.

Splurge.

i got a new wallet and a new pencil case from accessorize today! LOVE 'EM.

so.. i studied with michy gabs and natleng at RP library today. definitely conducive and YES, study session was productive. so thankful that they tested me the entire part 1 of my patho notes, despite it being so horribly boring hahaha. made me realised how weak i actually was.

left at about 615 to meet dioneyyy at town!! went to 4 accessorize (ion, taka, paragon and raffles city!) outlets and i finally got the wallet i've been eyeing for. which means i wouldn't be buying my fossil baby until... either this new love spoils, or i get sick of it. it actually doesn't look as pretty after i slotted in all my cards but OH WELL shall make do with this. mustn't regret a buy. 

:):):) i'm so happy nowwww. haven't shopped in such a long while and these 2 buys are like the greatest yippee deee doooo dahhhh dayyyyy!! 

p/s man did i eat a lot today.

Meet me in the pouring rain,

credit: tumblr

BLAME THE RAIN. i should be on my way to upper thomson since hours ago but because of the heavy downpour, i can't even leave home. and i'm the kind of person that can never study at home because there's way too much distractions. talk about my lappy.. my television.. my bed.. but ultimately, just my fridge. BIGGEST DISTRACTION EVER.

i took the first step at least. i opened my notes. but did i manage to focus? of course not. i'm just waiting for the cats and dogs to stop dropping off the sky so that i can leave for Salted Caramel. mandah told me it's a conducive place to study at, can't wait to try out :)

peace out folks!

Chill pill?

in bad need of a sleepover!

this always happens. exams are near and instead of studying what am i doing? thinking of all the outings i'm having during the post-exams holiday. i end up getting so distracted i can't focus but sometimes i can't help it. i really rather be thinking about how much fun i'll be having, than to be thinking about the functions of IFN-γ, the components of thin layer chromatography, the etiology of myasthenia gravis, or the various ways to optimise a drug. the amount of things i've to memorise is INSANE. but i got to keep going if i do not want to retake a module. ughhh just the thought of it gives me shudders.

trust in God. yes.

Proverbs 13:4 and Isaiah 41:10 to get me through this period. i know i can do this with His strength.

Dream.

THIS is what i should actually do when i'm older - travelling. and not stay in some hospital or some pharmacy just pathetically dispensing drugs hahaha. but money people, money. they don't just fall off the sky nor do they grow on trees.

stress and the urge to travel increases proportionally.

A whole new world.

New space! (yes, pun intended. refer to the picture above hahaha #lame)

blogger has so many new features (for the template thingy) and i being not very tech-savvy as usual, am super lost. how do i insert a picture to my "about me" section? how do i change the colour section headings on the left? how do i make that giant picture of myself above smaller? how do i........................................?

why poppingweasels? i've no idea either.