HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i did absolutely nothing to deserve such sweetness, such endearment from you. you've gone through so many of my difficult times with me i really don't know how i'd do it without you. you're always there by my side when i need someone to talk to.. and you're the kind of friend that i never want to lose. you love me so much i know i can never thank you enough. you give me the right advices to get me through my hurdles and you reassure me that you're always believing in me, supporting me. you're someone i can pour everything out to knowing that i won't get judged, and simply just someone i can confide in. and to even desire to have such openness and transparency in this friendship, man do i appreciate you so much. i can't believe it sometimes that i'm so blessed to have you. it's crazy, especially since i did nothing to deserve such an incredible friend. you loved me even though i was totally not worth your time.

love you yamz, from the deepest of my heart, i sincerely appreciate you.

this was 3 days back when we had swenson's @ orchard xchange. the lunch was super worth it because there was free ice cream, and that's inclusive of the 9.20 selection. all of us were so terribly bloated, but it was a really great catch up<3

met another bunch of darlings after that to rewatch johnny english. a good laugh still. and seriously yamz always bring her camera for nothing. we end up taking zero pictures. zilch. and yet we always complain how few the number of pictures we have together hahaha.

and yesterdayyyyy i had beancurd and i guess it was good?? i don't know, i usually just eat whatever that's placed before me. other than peanuts.. and mint.. and durians. but yes it felt soooo good talking to dear ken because i haven't seen him for who knows how long.

ain't doing anything today which means i've no reason to leave home which means i will be too lazy to bring myself out to get lunch and i'm starving quite horribly right now but i don't care. the most i shall cook some instant noodles hehe.

tomorrow's gonna be another exciting day with my lovelies, can't wait:)

i'm very blessed to have so many dear friends.
i really appreciate every single one of you.

i love my sister so much i can't bear to see her go through the pain she's going through alone. bought macaroons for her and we walked around novena. it was short, but at least i hope it got her distracted for that hour or two. quality>quantity. i pray she'll toughen up.

love can be so fragile.

i know i don't deserve God's goodness,

but yet God is still so nice to me :')

MY CLASSMATES' TIMETABLE

i really need to blog about this despite the shame in this matter.

yes i failed a module. i cried over it like some wimp as though it'll change anything. i thought about the humiliation i'll face, i thought about the faces of disappointment my parents will have if they knew i let them down, and... i just thought of everything negative.

but i held on to faith. 

it wasn't easy, honestly. because all this while i've been praying and praying to just ask God to reassure me that everything will be fine, and that despite the whole i-failed-a-module-so-i'm-a-lousy-student incident, i prayed that i'll still trust God and that i prayed i'll still be able to hold onto Him. HE NEVER FAILS.

i'm not saying this just because i'm a Christian and i have to evangelise and spread the good word of the Lord. i'm saying this because i've witnessed the good grace from my Father, and he really never forsakes me to let me go through any obstacle alone.

the chances of me having to stay behind for a semester was incredibly high. because there's this huge possibility that the director of lsct may think i will not be able to handle whatever workload that the school might give me because of my past GPA. but God's giving me this chance.. and i can only do everyone around me proud, and ultimately, do Him proud.

MY TIMETABLE

but look up there, the image above. because they managed to fit my immunology in without having to remove any other module of equivalent credits, i get to graduate with the rest of my class.

i am so grateful to God. and this whole week has been truly so filled with blessings.

hi guys i hope you all are doing great!! i'm so stoked because i've such exciting plans coming up this week!

tomorrow: movie with churchies!!
thursday: shopping with dezzy and png!!
friday: date with mandah and bee<3!!

i hope i don't spend too much these few days.. so broke now. gonna limit myself to only 50-60$ a week. no more than that. seriously i can't afford anything now lol. need to save up.. esp for faith promise.

p/s i bought 5 new nail colours from.. many places. my nail polish collection is about to burst i really need to find a proper space to put them!! i was thinking of a shoe box.... BUT will it be big enough? hahaha, albeit a lil gross.

happy thought: meeting many of my lovelies
depressing thought: can't skype with kel tonight
vexing thought: having to choose my elective

what will graduation be like?

mandah, you need to stay strong. as hard as it is for you to accept it, as hard you have to keep going. it's going to be a long journey, but it not necessarily mean it'll be a painful one. you know, every time i go through a difficult phase in my life, it made me open my eyes to see so much more. and then suddenly, i realise what i'm going through is just a little ant to the giant beauty of what life has to offer, and ultimately, what God can give. rest assured that all of us will be here for you, praying for you, keeping you going. but you've to do your own part too. keeping a spirit of positivity is really important, i just learnt that recently (you know my struggles..). and nothing can bring you down, not even what you're facing now, unless you allow it to, unless your thoughts allow it to. so press on, i'll be here when you need me. i am so glad i'll be meeting you on friday. you'll get the furriest, tightest, and most suffocating bear hug you've ever gotten in the history. love you to bits and pieces and i know and believe you can pull through<3

if i'm feeling this much pain already,
i wonder how you can handle yours which is 10x or 100x worse.

I feel uneasy whenever my friends get upset/angry/worried.. or just whatever besides happy. I don't know, a part of me feels sad with them. And it sucks when you know you can't do anything to help.

Maybe that's why I love it when my friends share their troubles with me. It makes me feel like they trust me enough to open up, and believe that I'd be able to help.. even if it means to just alleviate their negative emotions. But sometimes I can't do or say anything because I totally stink at consoling people, and giving advices. And if you're not physically there with your dear friend, it's worse. All I can do is to give a virtual hug, but it's really nothing compared to giving a real big bear furry tight hug.

I HAD SUCH AN INCREDIBLE TIME YESTERDAY.

so i went to shop for lanterns with my lovelies we were just being the silliest bunch! it's crazy.. but crazy fun. and really, chinatown is pretty. i've been to chinatown for excursions and all, but "SHOPPING" at chinatown is a totally different scenario. not to mention how cheap the stuff there are!! except for lanterns, candles and sparkles. i highly believe they always overcharge oriental items whenever there's a festival going on, and for this case, mid-autumn.

but still......... i want to go back to chinatown. like properly do some browsing, and just let the whole atmosphere soak in. ha ha ha YES LIKE A TOURIST. and bring my camera along to take some pretty pictures:)

and look, i've the cutest group of friends ever. we got ourselves matching watches<3 hehehe and it's such a steal. 3 for $10 like oh my goodnessss~~

GO GO POWER RANGERS!

then after we got what we needed for cell outing this saturday, we headed to astons @ cathay for dinner! well i didn't really eat. way too bloated from the bibimbap?? i had at watami for lunch. had pasta salad which was.. okay i'm not someone who likes cold pasta.

 

credit for photos: darling mich

ciaoz guys, i'm feeling so blessed to have such amazing friends.

p/s i haven't seen mandah for quite a long time already:(

svc was so good yesterday!! esp during p&w because krys gabs and i went up to the altar and seriously it's been so long since i've gone up to the altar to sing. and everything just feels so different. i guess you're sort of supposed to feel God anywhere?? and not just at the altar but idk, i love the altar. but no one seems to be going up after we got older :'(

gonna ask my fellahhssss to go up with me next week:)

happy thought: LANTERN SHOPPING WITH MAH CHURCHIES TMR!

had a sleepover at clarice's place a few days back and it was such a blast. such a wonder how much our friendship has grown since the start of poly year 1. we were never that close. but i guess a God-centered relationship is always a strong one. and i'm so thankful for her, always.

and yesterday.. i went to this UK symposium on medicinal chemistry and it was extremely boring. evidence: even my lecturer fell asleep.

credit: jasmine

so jas brilliantly suggested that we leave halfway. and bk, being the typical singaporean, insisted that we should leave only after the buffet lunch. that being so, it's 2 additional hours of boring lecture mind you. but we stayed anyway hahaha. 

met yamz darl at raffles city after that and had such a great time with her:)

p/s i was in heels for 16 hours. 4 inches fyi. nearly died,  but i survived!! #victorious