I'VE MOVED....... again.

hi guys!
i've officially moved to http://honeyitsfelicity.blogspot.sg/.
hopefully this time i'll remain faithful to this url.

a brand new start to being 19,
see you there <3 xx

everyone loves to be loved.

my birthday this year started early. had a mini celebration with one of my longest friend of 7 years and it couldn't have gone any better. celebrating my birthday is never mandatory, but i'm glad people do (or hopefully will!! hint hint hahaha). it makes me feel special, and exceptionally loved, for that one day. and that for one day, i'm treated like a princess. not that i could get anything i demanded for, but people willingly shower you with the excessive love and concern, hahaha... sadly or not. (they say all good things come to an end hahaha)

and it makes me think.. if i can be so contented from the love from man, i don't think i'll ever be able to comprehend how great and maginificent God's full blown love for me will be. it's just... wow. mind-blowing. especially when i always feel i'm so undeserving of such sincere love. and today was a very thought-provoking night. and i actually do enjoy such nights.

love. spread some today.

ps i think i overused the word "love" in this post, but i can't find a better substitute.
pps excited for my birthday, but not sure if i'm equally stoked about turning 19.... 

perfect. 

 this song makes you feel so loved. 

and maybe rid one's self consciousness for that little while and know that someone genuinely accepts you as you are. your body, your personality, your character, and.. just you.

HI GUYS. it's been a while but i'm glad this time i'm coming back with excitement. deep thoughts are good, but sometimes it affects my mood! so yes, for now, it's just me and pure jubilance. BECAUSE..................

and yes i am painfully aware of how awful i look with my hair tied all the way up. SOOOO i desperately need to get another picture with him. not sure if i'm able to though :( BUT STILL, MY GOODNESS. IT'S JOE BROOKS I TOOK A PICTURE WITH. doesn't matter how i look, have you seen how gorgeous he is??? not to mention, he smells SO good. and his cardigan was so soft. i sound perverse now, BUT HE IS SO PERFECT I CAN'T HELP IT.

i hope he doesn't come across my blog.
that would be gravely embarrassing.
i would dig a hole and hide.
unless he finds me cute and wants to propose to me instead, WAHAHA.

OK BYE GUYS <3

xx

i am so ashamed.
i don't think it's right for me to be fed up at someone like that.
why am i like this......

penitent.

today, i experienced a frustration that was never like any i had before.
it lasted for hours. they were never so long.
i'm checking the state i am in; my heart is still unrest.

i don't know what's wrong with me.
the angst that's within me... it's not normal.

need to do lots of praying.
and will definitely need lots of prayers.

versus what lighting can do............

my two favourite girls.

met qiqi yesterday for our taitai outing, and had a sleepover @ her place afterwards.
got up this morning and rushed to school for fyp meeting.

here's to another pointless post.

goosebumps.

i can watch this over and over again.

and for this, i will visit poland one day.

one day, just to understand how the people feel, how significant this exercise is to them, how this small action shows their love and support for those who have given their lives during a fight for freedom, how this act teaches them to be grateful for what they have today, and for the fact that they're even alive.

freedom.
maybe we've been taking this too lightly.

this, is heartwarming.

when fyp gets boring...
which is almost always...

i love it when my sister and i get some alone time. albeit her making me weep like a baby in the public train!! talk about embarrassing. but that aside, yes. good ol' time together, doing what we both INSANELY love - shopping.

tuesday.

spent about 100 bucks at h&m and i totally don't get why. i spent 2.5hrs there on sunday, which was like 2 days ago. AND i just spent another $100 out from my own pockets?? WHAT DID I MISS. what did i not see that my parents could pay for that i had to fork it out on my own............... heh.

then we walked around and we entered Lush. i promise you my sister gave me a stern warning outside the shop about not entering that beautiful box decorated with pretty colours and amazing outlook. she assured me that i wouldn't be able to resist myself, and that i would spend A LOT in there.

i overestimated myself. sure i did. despite the fact that it says "cosmestics". it wasn't make up or anything. i just got like body mud mask, hair mask, facial scrub, and lip balm. doesn't sound that much considering they'll only last max 5 times usage? but BAM! that's $120 mind you. i lack self-control.

but that's the bulk of it. the rest were random accessories that didn't cost as much as the above. and FOOD. takashimaya basement. my one true loveeeeeee, my only source for awesumpossum sausages.

this is such a nonsense post but i thought i'll keep this blog a little more alive with wordssss. no one likes words but i do, i really do. i like writing. and i miss writing. and i don't care if i've commited any grammar crimes in this post or not because it's 10:51 and i don't feel like checking. i want to sleep. it's 20min past my bedtime.

TOODLES.

one day maybe i'll upload my loot ;)

woohoo for no visual pleasure?? yea right.

ditsy.

for once, someone didn't use "blonde" or "bimbo".

haha, interesting.

in about a month's time, holidays are overrrrrr.

T R A G I C.

gonna miss the lifestyle i've been living.

gym, work, chill.

anyway, i shopped quite a bit at h&m yesterday. got myself a fair bit of loot. i honestly believe i was in and out of the changing room at least 10 times?? trying the sizes and the different colours of practically everything i bought. good haul, good haul. hopefully i didn't annoy the crap out of any of the workers there, heh.

till next time,
MWAH

<3<3<3

some sweet loving from browniceeeee.

doing up my app logo for fyp,

reading no (yes, w/ a space) body's perfect by kimberly kirberger,

snacking on walnuts laden with maple syrup,

and just waiting for time to pass.

mopped the entire shop floor today WOOHOO

it's so clean and sparklyyyyy now. 

okCIAOZZZZ

this space obviously lacks updates of substance.
but my life is too boring to give any good stuff for people to read.

oh apart from changing my gymming regime to E V E R Y D A Y instead of alternate days now. which means i'll be fitter?? i hope. did zumba yesterday and it was a whole lot of fun!!! albeit tiring. crazy movements my waist was aching a little bit by the end of it. thankfully it didn't result in severe muscle aches today so YAY.

anyway give the song below a listen.
first heard this about a year or two ago when jayesslee sang it. finally got about hearing the original. the lyrics speaks to me so much. it's a song that'll stir up hope and inspiration within you. i love it.



CIAOZ GUYS.
i promise i'll be back to give better updates next time.

OH OH YES. i bought contacts?? it was a frightening experience having to poke my own eyeballs at first. 15min to practice how to put that jelly lens in but NOW!!!!! i'm at a record breaking of 10 seconds for both eyes. and it has only been day 3. kudos!!!!

trying to fit 2 different plans for dinner, on the SAME day, is the worst. can't believe i'm so forgetful. i don't even know how i managed to agree to both parties that i'm free on the 6th. shouldn't it have rung a bell somewhere in my head??? THIS is why i need to update my scheduler regularly. now i've to find some way out...................

GAH sera why why why.
if only i can split myself into 2.
OR have some amazing teleporting skills.

but i don't.
so i shall continue to crack my head.

can't express how much i love this song. LOVE.
esp the "weee-EEEEEEEE" part.
this song makes me wanna burst out in a silly dance..........
and i usually do.

no idea if this song actually carries a positive or a negative connotation hahaha.
too lazy to think about it either.

BYE GUYS!

ps chlo is leaving in about 9 hours?? and the next time i'll get to see her is 8 months later. my heart aches BUT BUT BUT i know she's going to learn so much in SA and that she's going to grow so much spiritually, and as a person! praying that she'll make lots of nice friends (with both people and animals!!!!!) and that she'll come back with lots of testimonies and life stories to share. yayyyy God bless you chlo! <3<3<3

polka dot dot dot.

did my nails yesterday morning with a little help from my bobby pin.

effect turned out satisfactory enough.

smudges here and there but i'm too lazy to get it redone.

sunday - proper manicure woohoo!

back at brownice! <3
that's qiqi. and that's will.
work was a whole lot of fun yesterday,
and catching up with qiqi was just thumbssssss, yes plural, UP!

everyone's leaving one by one.
:(((((((((((

ps i need more denim shorts???
pps i have officially embarked on my taitai life yay

ANDDDD my hair is so short right now i reckon the hairdresser snipped off 9 inches instead of the 3 i told her??? i miss my long locks.... i was about to say beautiful, but i got reminded of its frizziness, so maybe not hahaha.

okCIAOZ.

i knew it.

believing > seeing.

God will answer prayers.

God knows me well enough.

anyway i am still depressed i gained so much weight so suddenly UGH.

need to gym it all off.

tomorrow = hardcore gym day.

ONE KILOGRAM.
i took 5 days to lose it,
and 1 day to gain it all back.

meh.

IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i can get used to this life. it's been perfect so far. just got back from FF and it's been quite some time since i've worked out. wow. but it definitely feels great to be sweating again.

a list of things to do.

a list of things to get.

HELLO TO 7 WEEKS OF JOY-FILLED HOLIDAYS.

apart from still having to do fyp maybe lol.

they say before you start a war, 

you better know what you're fighting for. 

ps i'm in love with lyric videos. 

such a sucker for fancy words twisting and turning.

This is me, believing i can do anything as long as i set my heart to it.
This is me, choosing what my heart should be after.
This is me, moving baby steps towards pursuing what i love.
This is me, knowing that even if i fail, at least i've tried.

This is me, taking everything on with a new perspective.

had 2 fun-filled days.

beyond satisfying.

but till the real holiday begins,

i've 4 more days of mugging to do.

it'll be gone in a jiffy.

and i'll be back real soon.

xx

going to reward myself on fri by playing hard.

meeting yamz since... forever?

but till then, i got to conquer PP.

2 more papers babehhhhh.

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This is just a pretty photo. It has completely no relevance to my content. #visualappeal

I tell myself, just 2 more weeks. 10 more days to be exact. 10 days of hard work can lead to glorious results, but 10 days of distractions here and there can lead me to destruction. Which will i choose?

Sometimes my heart wins my brain.

I woke up to this verse - Proverbs 25:28
"A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls."

Discipline. I will not succumb to any possible temptation that will stop me from my momentum. Or at least i bet i will try my utter best.

God will pull me through this, i can feel it in my bones.

So till 10 days later (or maybe even 11)...
ciaoz.

I won't let sadness steal you from my arms

I won't let pain keep you from my heart 

I'll trade the fear of all that I could lose 

For every moment I'll share with you

the lyrics - everything.

haven't had a song speak to me this much in a while.

everyone, give this song a little listen.

 words that i've read/heard over the past few days that i will remember (hopefully) for life:

#1 it's okay to make mistakes.
#2 what would you do if you are not afraid?
#3 do what you love first. money will come in second.
#4 ducks quack and complain. eagles soar.

i don't know why these were so impactful. maybe i'm in a phase whereby i've to realign my every perspective, my every focus.. and just how i view life. how i'm "living" life.. and by that i mean i believe i am not merely existing. maybe i've been too caught up with practicality that i push my dreams and passions aside. this day forth, i'm going to see and do things differently. "if you do not change, you can become extinct." - here's to all the stubborn people who think that you should not lose yourself no matter what. no, continuously improve yourself. now. and till forever. words from one of the most inspirational person i know.

give everything a shot.
live a life without regrets, though with boundaries.

stay home day.

been studying for 6 hours.

only 1 chapter conquered.

beyond unproductive.

exams in 9 days.

preparing for war again.

good news....... maybe?

i had 4 strepsils and 4 mac dual action to hopefully help my throat. and it really does feel A LOT better now, even though initially it felt like it wasn't working at all. but i'm really not sure if my throat's actually treated, or it's just numb from all pain because of the excessive amount of lozenges i took. went to see the doctor today and found out that i was running a temperature. ain't that big a deal though, i actually feel fine. apart from occasional headaches and feeling the immense heat migrating off my body.

but thank God x192839217 my throat is all good.
really don't know what i'll do if it's killed.

here's to another 2 more days of attachment before the long-awaited weekend!! praying that i'll recover by then so that i can have a good one! not working this sat so it means i get to spend it with my darling cell, WOOHOO.

till next time,
ciaoz.

no idea what's going to be of my voice.

or my throat.

i just don't want to stop singing.

praying with faith, and trust.

AG Youth Rally w/ Jon Pritikin.

He was really a great speaker. And he touched so many lives today. Thank you Jon, thank You God. 

I should have tried harder. I had this list of friends to bring for this rally. But how many came along today? None. Firstly, i did not ask all of them. Secondly, i did not persist hard enough. It's not really about the status of them "converting" into a Christian, but it's really about them knowing the love of God, and how He can relieve every single one of them from the pain they are going through. How He accepts us despite our fears and failures. He thinks we're special.

If i had tried harder, how many lives could have been saved today?

How many lives could have been impacted today?

Urgency. 

What a lesson about bringing back the lost sheep.

I will never take another event lightly ever again.

so creative and inspirational.

please do watch it.

i promise you it's worth it.

ps i'm giving marcellie a miss.
what a sacrifice i bear not to make.
but a sacrifice i made after all.

here's to the kids who are going through a difficult time. when life seems bleak and hopeless, and you feel as though your entire world is crashing down. when you know you already have too much on your plate but you keep feeding it because you got to grit your teeth and be strong. don't ever give up. life gets tough, but present suffering will pass.

the Lord's mercy will last. 

hang in there, dear friend.

IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
cheers to not needing to go back to school for the upcoming 3 weeks (except for resume photoshoot on monday but that's nothing mentally tiring) because of attachmenttttttt~ seriously believe i'm a lot more cut out to work than to study. but a paper's a paper and that's all people look at.

3 weeks --> exams --> 7 weeks of holidays (woohoo!!) --> next semester --> GRAD-U-A-TION.

as quoted from dezzy, "lazing is therapeutic stuff."

9-5 lessons EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. this week.

beyond drained.

test + presentation tomorrow.

i foresee myself staying up all night refining my presentation, doing up my script and studying for my test. lighting up the midnight oil that i usually don't burn. i feel extremely worn out. but i'm not going to give up. final year, let's go. i've a GPA to pull up.

last day before attachment.

can't wait.

hopefully it'll be much better than school.

Class fun.

rehearsed for our presentation in class today.

got bored and had some camwhoring fun instead.

 bad quality pictures, but that doesn't mean i'm any less happy.

love my group mates aplenty <3

i survived class with minimal sleep today.

KUDOS!