jams was good today and P.victor said a few things that really hit me.

1. desire to seek God................. daily.
2. transformation begins with me.
3. making a positive impact.

somewhere he said "waking up earlier to do tawg" and it struck me. my post yesterday was on tawg.. and today everything he said just suddenly brought me back to my tawg.. and my obedience to God. i really need to bring myself to recommit all that i have to God, and to even long for an intimate time with him. to do tawg daily and not let distractions get the better of me. tv can wait, tumblr can wait, youtube can wait. God first.

transformation begins with me because if i want to see how God is using me or changing me, i have to let him. and i have to renew my mind. love. i cannot just ask God to teach me how to love and expect myself to be the friendliest or the most kind-hearted and self-sacrificial person alive. i need to make it a point to be nice to people. it's on my own part. God will help, but i have to take the little steps.

and of course i've to always remind myself that my actions will always affect someone... somehow. and i need to remember to think before i act. or even think before i say. i know i am too straightforward for my own good. i want people to see Christ through me.

but yes jams in all was really good and i'm starting to feel a little more comfortable around the Wmin people YAY. and that mel's always here for me so i'm very thankful for that (BIG SMILEY).

that's all. abrupt ending. ciaoz!

morning: claire and david came over to my place to make rice krispies treats and it was such a success!! received so many positive feedback about it hehe + it's extremely easy and quick to make so yay i might just consider making that for christmas or birthdays.. somewhere along that line. i found out why i failed the very first time - i added 3 TEAspoons of butter instead of 3 TABLEspoons. ridiculous mistake.

afternoon: cell was crazy fun because we played sardines and 3 blind mice. fell and hurt my left butt cheek but it's fine now. the sun today is just merciless. service was impactful and i could really feel God moving in the chapel. and he gave me an important thought and i really ought to reflect on that.

"just because you've done worse before, it doesn't give you a privilege to do bad now." the thought that was ringing repeatedly in my mind. i know what was God referring to. i know exactly what God was implying. thank You for speaking to me during service. needed that reminder.

evening: dinz with cell. played BANG! and polar bear. good dinner, good company, good laughs.

plans for tomorrow: jams @ PL, meet bee @ flea --> dinner with her + other lovelies. YAY.

picture from Chengdu. i miss how everything is so dirt cheap there. and the cooling weather.. not the harsh cold!! heat is okay, humidity is not. 

randomly found a new background to change into. i really fancy the texture. and i was extremely bored of the previous one.

so anyway, attachment was good today because time flew so fast!! work was barely work and i had fun. headed down to town to meet may and kai. had great laughs over dinner @ hongkong cafe. mini interrogation section and we found out the various queer things people do in front of different groups of people. which is very interesting hahaha.

can't believe kai is enlisting soon!! and derick. and jek hui. NS is stealing away all my friends hahahaha. oh yes and i'm starting to get used to guys being botak. as in... i used to ALWAYS say that i can never imagine so and so without hair and all.. but i'm over it. i've seen so many guys going in and coming out looking actually quite not bad with a botak head hahahaha. + tanner skin.

so yes i had a fantastic day and i reached home at 0030, which is crazy because usually i'll be insanely guilty about it. i'm not sure why i wasn't today. too caught up in fun.

a few of my cell peeps are coming over tomorrow morning to make rice krispies treats with me, YIPPEEE. it's going to be epic fun. i hope we don't create too much a mess hahaha. and tomorrow, i WILL wake up earlier to tidy my room up a little. i can't bring myself to show my churchies how messy a girl i actually am lol.

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE xx

oh p/s i bought a new pair of sandals and slippers hehe

just got back from attachment not too long ago and for the very first time, i worked overtime!! which is funny because i'm not supposed to be this joyful when i'm already providing free labour, but it was quite an experience. and i did it most willingly. today was an odd day because most people came in the late afternoon so the usually busy morning was significantly more manageable.

things i did today:
1. repacking
2. picking
3. counter 1
4. preparing & labeling

i'm glad that i am learning so much from attachment, and that my colleagues are the friendliest bunch of people you'll be more than happy to be around with. can't wait to do dispensing!! i hope i manage though. my heart beats a million times faster whenever someone speaks to me medical terms in chinese. PANIC MODE ON. make that a billion times when it's dialect.

 technically, only 5 more days of attachment left. yay or nay? hahahaha. CIAOZ.

jayesslee + cathy nguyen + worship song = absolutely amazing!!

loving the fact that i have every mondays off because it means i naturally have a longer weekend than everyone else hehe. today was just me lazing around my home.. eating sushi for lunch with my dear sister and i had a pathetic attempt of trying to make rice krispies treats. joechua gave all of us a pack (and i requested for another lol) last saturday and it's SO delicious. everybody around me had it before during their childhood or something but i honestly haven't tasted this beautiful snack before!! heaven on earth. and it's actually no longer available in stores so yes the reason why i actually bothered to make it.... or at least try to.

i heated the marshmallows and everything was going SO well. until i tried mixing the rice krispies cereal in. the melted marshmallow was hardening up really quickly and it very soon became lumpy and extremely difficult to mix. so disappointing. it was way tougher than i though!! let's just hope joechua successfully makes it so that he can bring some during the weekend!! yayyyyyy.

so much for being on a diet sera, lol. munch munch.

ps i have instagram now!! YIPEE
pps my aunt said my face is rounder now!! BOOHOO

 
there's a lot i want to do despite not having time. work because my bank account's full of flies, learn a third language like spanish or something cool, travel travel travel (my holiday wasn't long enough lol), improve my voice by... idk practising and that takes time too!!... many many things.

but anyhoo, attachment has just started today and it was really fun!! with great people to work around with so thank God. quite a pity i'm only there for a short 3 weeks but i believe i'm going to learn tons of things!! did repacking and picking medicine today which was... well felly and i were such lost sheep. but we got better, and i believe we're only going to get faster and more efficient!!

starting work at 9am. procrastination is the thief of time. my report is 1% done, and i'm not exaggerating. i've written only one sentence, and that line wasn't even hard to come up with. i'm scared i wouldn't be able to complete it on time, but then again... i'm still busy being distracted by everything else. like food.

i think my appetite has increased a million times after i'm back from china!! ugh gross. i'm getting so fat now i'm disgusted with myself. i eat with no control. time to diet!! but it never works.............. and everytime i say that i usually end up eating more.

had jams @ PL earlier today and i promise i'm such an awkward turtle. i was 10min late so me being as uncool as i am, i dare not entered t1/t2 lol. + i got lost because i'm such an adam kid hahaha but thanks to gabe for giving me directions!! and i called may and told her about the situation i was in and i ended up talking to her in the toilet for like a good 30min. then mel finally replied me so YAY mel to the rescue!!

then i stepped on stage to practise for the very first time and i had to solo one verse and i was beyond terrible omgee. firstly i barely know the tune and secondly i was frightened. i don't know what i was doing lol.

but yea it was still quite an experience and i can't wait to grow more in Wmin. and there's so much to learn about voice control and all the technicals i can't wait. there's a lot more to worship than just singing.

ahhh this is like a random post to remind myself to practise and practise and practise. projection + less vibration. i don't really know how to control my voice but i'll try, hahahaha. omg it's fun though.

ok bye guys!!

p/s my sistah is flying off soon, and i've not even been back for a week yet:( but she's going to learn so much from her mission trip, yay!! proud of her<3

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hi guys i've touched down in sunny singapore for more than a day already and i've finally settled down. i completely forgot how detestable the weather here can be. just an hour ago it was bright and sunny and now it's raining cats and dogs. not to mention how humid it is.... i feel sticky immediately after showering - yuck.

but nonetheless i'm loving the heat. it's what i missed the most during my stay in chengdu. prices are about 5x more expensive back here and i have a little adjusting to do.

ate nando's with my lovely mandahs yesterday and i had such a blast. home is where the heart is, how true. i want to make a trip down to PS again as soon as possible because i saw so many things i want to get there. too bad i didn't bring enough cash with me to buy them all.

p/s i really want to get my room revamped pronto. i dragged it for so long already but i finally decided what colour i want my wall to be so YAY at least the fickle-minded sera finally made up her mind.

i'm coming home i'm coming home, tell the world i'm coming home~

this is part of my shopping haul. i spent so much here i'm in debt right now. guilty, but i comfort myself by believing i will regret once i'm back in singapore if i don't get them now. so yes.

and food. i spend a lot more than expected on food. and little bits here and there. i honestly don't know where all my moolah went to but surely, they're flying off my wallet FAST. quicker than i knew. thankfully i've friends who are willing to spare me some, and double thankful that at least i'm going back soon.

in about 28 hours i'll be leaving for the airport. i know i'll miss here (ew to say i'll miss china but i think i might actually do) and just waking up to the noises of my lovelies. and i'll miss chilling out @ times. best hang out spot officially... though costly. china costly. nothing compared to singapore still.

till next time!! xx

thank You God for Your kind protection.
thank You for keeping everyone safe.
thank You for teaching me what it means to be appreciative.
thank You thank You thank You.

life can be so fragile. cliche but true.

today a group of us had a crazy traumatic experience but none of us are physically hurt so thank God. i think it's unbelievable just how yesterday clarice and i were doing our tawg together (after so long!! it could have been our last one omg) and i was just ending it with a prayer that went "and Lord, keep us safe for the rest of our journey here." He did. He really did. because we all could have died. the impact could have been harder. but His arms were protecting all of us.

seriously, thank You Lord. i can't thank You enough.
and really, i'm just thankful for even being alive now.

anyway, happy easter everyone!! xx

currently on replay: cover of "that should be me - justin bieber" by AJ rafael + albert posis

i miss home. i'm glad i'm going to back 7 days later.

last night, i was really sorting my thoughts out about what i want to do in the future. i know i have never been a science person, so being in this course right now, i struggled a lot, and am still struggling. but it was like a safe choice back then when i picked it. you can never go wrong with science. a science-related diploma can at least get you a job somewhere, somehow.

but it's not what i wanted. it's not what i'll continue to pursue for a degree.. if i even make it to university that is. so yes, yesterday i was looking up at courses.. getting advices from my roommate, trying to figure out what i really want to do 5 years down the road.

i know what i want. but i won't spill it here yet. because the fickle-minded me wants to get more advice from people. but for now, i'm happier that i at least have a slight idea of what degree i'll be taking.

YAY. china's getting boring. can't wait to fly back!! xx

Photos from everyone and everywhere.

Presentation in class.

Dinner at pizzahut. Feels like i'm back home again.

Dumpling making session. A lot tougher than it seems.

After embroidery.

@ Panda sanctuary. Totally scenic lake as backdrop.

@ Happy Valley. Thrilling rides.

Conjoined braids.

"M" Saturday. (inside joke)

 

Ridiculous dare that was SO embarrassing but yet still major fun.

never knew China could be filled with this much fun. the company definitely plays a major role. and i'm so thankful. i've learnt something so special in this trip. and i've met someone so inspirational - my lecturer. i've been extremely blessed by this trip. and i've done the craziest dares here. it's unbelievable. my friends are hilarious. i wanted to post one of them (most captured on camera hahaha) but it's taking too long and my impatience couldn't wait any longer. but one day, i'll look back and think how silly and wild i was. but great memories.

from EH-HELLO-ing at random strangers, to role-playing at themeparks, to ellen dance dares, to saluting and marching pass an armed security guard/police, and lots more. more to come i believe!! dares are thrilling. love them.

i know the next 9 days are going to be more fulfilling and enriching. honestly excited!! but i've one last report to complete first. then it'll be no work. just fun. fun. fun. fun. FUN!!

bye guys sorry for the lack of updates!!