highlights of my weekend (sunday + monday):

1. w-min grads farewell party
2. jan gave me her spare a. guit (eternally grateful!)
3. gdop
4. cleo's birthday surprise + sleepover w/ melz
5. lunch with cleo & her mom (and i really learnt a lot from cleo's mommy!!)
6. chill out @ bishan park w/ ken (great catch-up!)

this is by far the most packed weekend i had ever since school started. but it was such an eventful weekend, and i had so much fun catching up with the different groups of people i've not met in the longest time ever.

no school on tues and wed, YAY.
exams are next week though, too soon!! :O

sometimes words don't get across as intended. 

sometimes things don't go as planned. 

sometimes you want to make things better, but end up making things worse. 

guilt-stricken. 

but still bewildered.

didn't have any lessons today but i still had to go down to NUH for a short fyp meeting. honestly stoked to kick start our project. sounds like a lot of fun with tons of patient interaction.. and it's doing something practical and applicable.. not like reading up articles over and over again throughout the entire course, YAY.

had a good lunch @ nex yoshinoya with my darling project mates. wanted to look for flats & bags but ended up going home empty handed because nothing caught my eye. OH wait!! something did. but there wasn't size:(

here's to a good friday tomorrowwwwwwwwwwww. meeting may for some meatball feasting. excited!!

  Britt Nicole - Hanging On (thank you dezzy for sharing this song with me!!) the song that is going to get me through the many weeks to come.

about 3 weeks since school has officially started, which means less blogging because my days are more hectic now. workload piling up as usual and all the tests are coming in. not to mention exams are in less than 2 weeks' time. time sure is flying.

quick update:

ikea meatballs + waffle and green tea ice cream + a tub hazelnut ice cream + my latest obsession: yakult.

funny interview: emma stone on ellen show





okay time to face my notes again in preparation for tomorrow's test. i hope i do well.

one word: exhausted.

i can't wait till term break comes because i need the holiday badly. ridiculous how i'm dreading school so much even though it's only been 2/3 weeks, i don't even remember. how did i manage to pull myself through 7 weeks before? i don't want to fight another losing battle.

grades grades grades grades grades. had a good chat with may over the phone last night about how we're so caught up with how the society perceives us we sometimes forsake our true self to be what the society wants us to be. it's not just physical appearance wise, but the way we make our decisions also. and i noticed how much i had been influenced by my environment and it's so freaky.

i might just break down in this whole realm of competitiveness.

at least work makes me happy. ice cream makes me happy. the people make me happy.

and i can't wait for service later. really need God to be with me through this. not saying He's only there for me in church, but i really want to forsake everything right now and worship Him properly and not get distracted by anything else.

thankful that it's weekends 8)

found a substitute photo editor for picnik with many thanks to my sister for her recommendation. dug out some old photos to play around. yes, i'm doing stupid things like this instead of doing my literature review or studying for friday's test. guess who's the laziest bum alive?

school is blahhhhh and i've been falling asleep during lectures. not even sure how or when i did because the last thing i remembered, i was still trying to keep myself awake, taking down notes though not very diligently. i feel like i'm disappointing myself, esp since i really want to work extra hard this year. but i just can't seem to find the drive.. the motivation to keep going.

guess attachment is the only thing i'm looking forward to, for now. i hope NUH will be kind to me. i need for formal clothes. and proper flats (or pumps or whatever you call 'em). my current ones are ALL ripping apart. but i've got 3 new pair of toms teehee.

okay hasta la vista.

 just maybe, i miss you. not in any other way more than friends but i miss being comfortable around you. and how all of us hung out together. not just us alone.. but us in a group. us with the others just chilling and hanging out, laughing over the slightest things and just having fun. and not you.. distancing yourself. maybe i'm feeling guilty. maybe i could have have you more involved even after all that has happened. the fault's mine. but i miss the whole big group of us.

i miss my e2 darlings.

and everyone else i was close with in beatty.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

i love you mom. even if i quarrel and argue with you a lot. even if i'm cold towards you. even if i haven't got a gift for you. even if i haven't been spending time with you. even if i get frustrated at the things you say. even if i don't seem to be receptive about your care and concern for me. even if i reject your kindness. even if it seems as though i do not appreciate your advices.

even if... i don't express it.

went to chinatown with my parents today and we were just being touristy, walking around. had my favourite glutinous rice ball dessert with yam and green tea filling. love it. and you can't just find it anywhere! too bad i don't stay near chinatown or i'll have it ev-er-y-day. but koi is perfect for now. i know it's not very healthy to be drinking that daily but ugh can't help it. my sweet tooth needs to be satisfied hehe.

i didn't do anything elaborate for moms' day but i'll give her a belated surprise. haven't got the time to do so + we're doing mothers' day dinner next week instead so then will be more appropriate anyway! no, i'm not giving an excuse for my procrastination.

soooooooo what i have up is 2 literature reviews that are undone. going to conquer them tomorrow. it doesn't seem that demanding an assignment so i hope i'll complete it before i go to work. i've been working quite a bit... only this week. then it's back to an every saturday thing again. love my working environment though<3

alright that's all for updates, MWAH.

cheenahhhhtown - prettier than you imagined.

little happenings today that i want to thank God for:

1. not falling asleep in class at all
2. first choice for fyp, YESSSSAHHHH!
3. random stranger that was kind & generous enough to pay my bus fare for me
4. mini chat with the stranger that was actually enjoyable (made my ride back home less lonely!)
5. being able to work tonight

just a day like this is enough to teach me to be appreciative of the slightest happenings in my life that i could easily miss. today, i have joy overflowing. and i had no clue as to why i could not stop smiling in class. clarice can vouch for that hahaha. oh and earlier, my e2 girlies thought it'll be funny to play a little trick on me by making me think that my phone is spoilt. WHAT A PRANK!! because i honestly fell for it hahahaha. the little delights of life<3

anyway i don't know when did burger king actually changed their tagline but it actually sounds pretty religious in my opinion. "with the king, you can." either i'm overthinking into this simple slogan or God's trying to remind me to trust in His abilities and His purpose for me. both way works.

and YES!!! IT'S FRIDAYYYYYYYYY. this week felt like it was the draggiest week ever since this year has started. but i'm glad it's over. school has started for only one week and i'm dreading it already. why am i not more studious? once again, like i've mentioned gazillion times before, i can't wait to graduate.

bye guys!! xx

quick update of my life in snapshots:

shopping haul: bangles, rings and headbands + 2 pairs of toms + charm bracelets

when learning about healthcare gets boring.....

my very unhealthy snacking habit that at least keeps me awake in class..

so... there's this harry potter exhibition coming up this june @ mbs. i'm not a mega harry potter fan or anything but my friends have been persuading me to go. + i love going for exhibitions. i'm having high expectations though.. mainly because the titanic one was so remarkable.

but anyway, i've been a boring girl staying at home after school doing absolutely nothing but just watching videos all day long. britain's got talent + america's next top model + all my subscribed youtubers' new uploads. assignments are starting to roll in but i am in no mood at all to do them. i need to be more hardworking.. because this is my final year, and there's only this little time i'm left with to pull my pathetic gpa up to something more presentable and acceptable. i don't want to be left with no where to go. not that i'm certain what my path is yet though..........................

but for now, i'd like to believe sociology is the way.
and i try not to be fickle.

favourite acts from bgt live shows so far:

Jonathan & Charlotte

Ashleigh & Pudsey 

Only Boys Aloud

my heart is breaking. i can't believe the mend got out. i'm SERIOUSLY hoping they will be the wild card for now.. unless other good talents get out in the subsequent episodes. this is what happens when you support too many acts lol. but still, i'll be supporting the mend, BGT or not.

anyhoo it was still a great semi finals, and the top 2 did deserve their top 2 spots. absolutely in love with ashleigh and pudsey. i might just die from cuteness overload. i want to cuddle pudsey badly!! that fluffy thang.

what i did earlier today:

SEOUL GARDEN WITH MY LOVELY OIP GIRLIES<3 

it is actually very worth it. i am broke and was a little reluctant to join my mates for lunch at first but decided to just spend this final lump sum and save and scrimp throughout this entire week instead. i did not regret at all man!! there was student price so it was only 13.99++ excl. of gst and service charge. which is such a value for money because it's buffet and the food was much better than i expected. esp the teriyaki chicken!! everyone should go and try it if you all haven't. but what are the odds, everybody around me has been talking about it. i think i'm the last to try already. oh by the way i heard the branch at marina allows you to bbq/fry ice cream??? sounds exciting!! gonna give it a try next time when i have more dough.

tomorrow marks the first day of school for this semester. mixed feelings. it's back to the old 1 hour long bus rides again.. being stuck in the morning PIE jam... back to the same routine of facing notes and boring lectures. but i do miss school environment. lectures now are thought by the genius people from NUH. i wonder how it'll be like..........

till next time, ciaoz!!

ps i'm working @ brownice now (but ain't that regularly!) so everyone come down and enjoy some good guilt-free ice cream!! it's replaced the old ice kimo!

 

thank You for meeting me where i was. 

thank You for Your sweet embrace. 

thank You for revealing Yourself to me again when i was dry. 

thank You for always being here for me.

thank You God.

thank You Lord.

quick update: kai + derick + jekhui are enlisting this monday. met up for a mini "farewell" dinz with a few others yesterday @ upper thomson. it was a different sort of catch up. maybe it's in the spirit that most of them are getting their interviews/acceptance letters from the various unis, but all the topics we were discussing about were very mature and intelligent. i feel so smart just talking to them........ no, even just listening to them.

north korea/south korea/singapore's economy/hdb prices/yada yada. 

the boys haven't changed much at all hahaha esp jekhui. good hangout, good dinner, good dessert.

 You are - alm (abundant life ministries)

this song touched me. God You are indeed everything we need. in fact, You are all i need. You alone suffice. God's been teaching me so much about self-acceptance. i'm growing out of my insecurities, at least for now. thank You God. friend for those in need, defender of the weak. the song speaks so so so so SO much.

You are God. and thank You for meeting me where i am.

ISTANA!

was at made with love with yamz to get papers (omg i still feel so cheated about my $15 that i could have saved. too lazy to elaborate on what happened though lol) and we, or maybe just i, suggested that we should walk down to orchard so that i could save some transport fee. so while walking we walked past istana and we realised that it's actually open for public visitation today!! too bad i'm posting this at 11:26pm so you've missed your chance to visit already. but yes, so we made an impromptu decision to enter and be all touristy.

and by the time we reached town both of us were dead beat. our legs were extremely tired from all the walking and we couldn't shop properly. but i still got myself a very pretty weaved bag from orchard central. it was a fantastic day all in all, and an amazing catch up session. tired, but worth it. can't believe we might be meeting again tomorrow, OH THE JOYYYY~

p/s istana is really pretty. too bad it's not open for public to have picnics hahaha