one word: exhausted.

i can't wait till term break comes because i need the holiday badly. ridiculous how i'm dreading school so much even though it's only been 2/3 weeks, i don't even remember. how did i manage to pull myself through 7 weeks before? i don't want to fight another losing battle.

grades grades grades grades grades. had a good chat with may over the phone last night about how we're so caught up with how the society perceives us we sometimes forsake our true self to be what the society wants us to be. it's not just physical appearance wise, but the way we make our decisions also. and i noticed how much i had been influenced by my environment and it's so freaky.

i might just break down in this whole realm of competitiveness.

at least work makes me happy. ice cream makes me happy. the people make me happy.

and i can't wait for service later. really need God to be with me through this. not saying He's only there for me in church, but i really want to forsake everything right now and worship Him properly and not get distracted by anything else.

thankful that it's weekends 8)