i think it's ridiculous, no scratch that, it's STUPID how i let myself fall into the realm of worry again and again and AGAIN. I HAVE A BIG GOD that is greater than all my circumstances, greater than any problem i face. My future has already been planned out, planned out to what God knows is best for me. i have absolutely no reason to be fearful of something as trivial as exams. so why do i keep falling deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit of anxiety!!

my blog header says "only Love can make a way". it is to remind me that neither my grades, nor the society, nor the worldly standards, can place me in a situation i can't get out of. neither can this earth give me results i'll be satisfied with because God is my source of happiness. only God has my path in His hands. only God knows what my destiny is. ONLY GOD CAN MAKE A WAY FOR ME.

my previous blog's header says "You hold me now". it is to remind me that i have a God that always catches me when i fall. He knows that i am only human and i have my limits. He holds me when i make mistakes, He holds me when i cry, He holds me when i fail, HE HOLDS ME. i'm never going to fall that deep unless i let myself to.

and the only reason why i'm suffering in the hands of worry is because I AM NOT LETTING GOD TAKE CONTROL OF MY STUDIES. all i've been doing is trusting me myself and i. i'm not even letting God play any part in this. i've been relying on my own abilities that can only do this little, that is so limited, instead of depending on God's abilities which can do much bigger, and is very much limitless.

I NEED TO STOP WORRYING. GOD BE THE SOLUTION. and i need to stop praying as though it's all about Him, but act as though it's all about me. i need to get my priorities right. God be the first, God be the center!!

CAPICHE SERA, CAPICHE?? GOOD.